Dark Ramblin'

I am so not into being on this earth right now. I'm tired of working, tired of driving, tired of being here, and tired of everything
What can I do besides verbalize it? I guess if I knew that if after I was dead I could sit around and watch things happening, I would have the balls to get rid of myself.
But I don't know that, and I want to see how things turn out. Is that a reason to live?
I'm always leaving things unfinished, should my life be any different?
Fuck it I'm proably being too dramatic, but fuck that too...